Bored: Looking For Friends (or Things?)

Hello hello Bandung. (Dun think thirsty ok, I just need somebody.) Huuh. Going to the end of holiday is make me getting bored. It is like all the stuff for me to do is finished or they reached the boredom point already. Since I am push myself to not playing game this holiday. -Like last holiday, yeah. I feel fun with Maple Story. Everyday from morning to night just spent all the time to gain level and I didn't feel any bad thing (maybe because it gave me an virtual achievement?) But in the end I have realized if playing game is bad (I mean, a long long online game, not like some games in Facebook. Oh, that one just a bit bad lar.)- So, like what I have listed the plan on previous post, I ended up didn't so some things like sewing, because I have no money to buy the fabrics and stuffs. Then, If you ask why I do not paint or draw (when I did write much more than I imagined) it because like I loose my passion on it; because I were planning to much to develop my style until it ended up nothing.

And I need friends to talk to, to play to, to laugh together, but many of them are not available. You know, this is holiday: almost everyone went back to their country (this make me think that it's better to study in your own country and feel really like home with all the compromising of the bad things). And some who left here are busy (that's why they do not go back!). And I feel alone. I was talking about my church-mates. School-mates? I found that they are friendly (talking about fashion students). I like them. But I can follow where they go when they hang out. In ironic way, they just go smoke and club. 2 things that I really dun like. Maybe I should change course with all the artist friends and everyday we just go painting, art exhibition or even go to jazz free concert? Ok, however I feel they are nice people to talk to. Just can't go together with their group, the talking topic (no need to mention) will go very far than I can deal with.

Sometime, I think why I never come Singapore earlier so I can have some normal friends, like sec-friends (I call them normal friend, hahaha, like what I have on my high school. I envy Tirza who have some). Normal friends? I think I have some on my foundation year. Ah, forgot about them because of the business and we never contact each other for a one time. But I tell you, there was a canceled farewell party to my "lovely teacher" (hehehehe, dunno la. He is the best teacher on foundation I think even some people think if he is a bias person) because friend said: nobody want to participate. Sigh... And my final reason is, I have no money. So, it's better for me to stay at home. I'm glad that holiday will end soon.

Why I do not paint or draw? I really want to do it. I like to make portraiture, and I usually draw a person who close to me (feel more convenient) like some portraiture I've done. But, for now I dunno who I should draw, hard to pick one (really sentimental like what Tirza describe me. Hahaha.) Then, see later how. Since holiday will end soon, I have to read the grammar book that I planed to read, and read some fashion stuff again. Next semester is for 'fashion textile", 'fashion communication' ( I have to write a lot here. Hey! Write this blog with english is really helping me,) and there still some design workshop like sewing and pattern-making (ah, I love them!) and I hope I still have the management lecture. This is the lecture which I always fell asleep but recently I have understood what it is about (I say myself want to go Fashion Management? Hahaha.) I like this lecture, and the lecturer is so great even the teaching method is quite bad...

Sigh.. So tired.. I think I just go back the satisfaction of jazz music, like I just amaze on every arrangement they have like no other thinks to pay attention on. Hahaha. Btw, I just sleep about 2hrs last night because of the decorating for New Year Service in the church. I thank God because everything is done well. And I just awoke from my short sleep and feel lonely again. Huh. I had a nightmare. Louisa. Louisa. You was in my dream! And I do not know why all the paparazzi chase after unclothes-me (just with a towel wrapped for my bottom.) Huahahaha. I tried to broke they cam until I woke up with a very fast heart-beat. Oh God... What a nightmare...

Ok, I think I stop here. When I was thinking of game, suddenly I remembered about HOD4. Hehehe. Do not know when I can play it again. Tirza, where else I can play that?

Mazmur

I thank Lord to be my provider on many things He knows that I need..

Inilah mazmur bagi Tuhan Allahku:

Aku akan bersyukur dan bersorak-sorai lagi bagi Dia.

Oleh kasih karuniaNya yang tak berkesudahan

di dalam hidupku.

Sebab telah dipeliharaNya aku

dan telah diberikanNya kepadaku

apa yang menjadi seruanku.

Oleh kasihnya yang memelihara aku

di waktu aku terjatuh ke dalam

jalan-jalan sepi.

Dan sungguh tidak pernah Ia lupakan aku

dan selalu menuntunku

ke dalam jalanNya yang terang!

Terpujilah, ya Engkau Tuhan.

Dan biarlah segala kemuliaan

memenuhi tahtaMu

dan keagunganMu terdengar

sampai ke penjuru bumi.

Haleluya!

-

Hello guys... gw dapet ayat bagus nih. hehehe.

"He has filled and satified the hungry with GOOD THINGS ,
and the rich He has sent away EMPTY HANDED [without a gift].
-Luke1: 53

Dan setelah baca ayat tu, gw jadi inget klo gw itu udah dpt byk hal
selama liburan ini (di mana gw lagi broke bgt. hehehe.)
Gw jd bersyukur bgt dan juga want to say thx buat kalian jg
yang secara gak langsung udah jadi berkat buat gw dalam
berbagai bidang, sisi dan sudut pandang. Hehehe. Thx thx.

Jadi gw jg mau kuatin kalian klo lagi ada masalah mengenai
kekurangan, entah kekurangan waktu, kekurangan uang,
ato mungkin merasa kurang keren. gw mau ingetin lagi:
jgn lupa tetep andalin Tuhan di atas segalanya.
(soalnya kadang gw juga lupa. hehehe.)

ok d. segitu aja dulu.
i wish that God's bless will always be with you forever.

=)))))

Ini Puisi Tirza

This is a poem by Tirza which I translated it into Bahasa Indonesia.
(With a little bit modification.)
- English version click here




Kata-kata


bentukan kalimat di kepala terucap dari bibirku
itulah kata-kata
dari dalam aku
luar-dalam-nyata-murni: kata

kata adalah ekspresi
melayang sekitar udara tak berarah
menanti seseorang, siapa saja,untuk menangkapnya
agar menjadi hidup

kata-kata tak pernah meninggalkanmu sendiri;
"tandai kata-kataku"-akan terpahat di kepala
atau mungkin di hati yang membatu
percayalah
dan engkau pun ketahui apa yang akan kukatakan
tentang baris selanjutnya
dan baris-baris lainnya setelah itu

tetapi tak akan engkau temukan
diriku dalam rutinitas itu
dan setelah kelalaian yang kita jalani
sekarang aku akan mulai berlari

inilah kata-kataku
dari dalam aku
untukmu



.^^. Good poetic sense. Hehehe..

Honey!

Helloe..! This afternoon I suddenly remembered of a Japanese song, it is an anime song from Detective Conan but i forgot to type down the title. Maybe because it's in Japanese letter and i do not understand. I found this song in a CD that i bought in Indonesia when I was in High School and I listened this song for several times since i were fall in love with my classmate. Hehehe. An easy listening and sweet tune. Actually, I did not understand what is this song lyric but it use a little bit English on the chorus. It says:

you will realize...
blablablabla..
you are the one...
blablablabla..

And it make me became more patient to show her my care.
Sometimes it can be funny to recall back your memory about childhood. lol.

Ok, I just want to say that I like Japanese song because their lyric is so poetic. Sometime on my spare time, I like to read them and experience the words and feelings. It enhance my vocab, at least to write some poem. Hehehe.

Oh yeah, I remembered about 1 anime that I like so much on television when I was in Secondary School. It is Card Captor Sakura. It has 1 ending song which is so sweet and easy. You can listen it by click this word. And this are the English lyric. Ah, so sweet. This is a raining season, isn't it?

Honey

Alone, I lean on the windowsill, my cheek resting on my palm
staring at the endless rain
I've been alone all day
I wonder what you're doing right now...
The memories I collect are precious treasures
Making my heart wrench

Ah   Isn't it strange?
Just remembering
makes me affectionate.

Just like honey
spreading out sweetly in warm milk
My heart dissolves
Your smile is the finest honey.

Looking up in the sky at Orion's Ruby
In my very own planetarium
Welcome back again tonight
When we're together, I can't gaze at the stars
Now let's zoom up 100 thousand times
and draw in the sky

Ah   Isn't it wonderful?
It's like
you're always by my side

On nights when I can only curl up
and cry sad tears
you give me courage.
Your smile is the finest honey.
I spread my wings wide
and alight from Heaven, like the star-filled sky
I can be strong!
Your smile is my very own honey.

.^^.

Christmas! Lalala!

Merry Christmasssss..!! Wheee~ This Christmas is so joyful. I think this is the best Christmas I ever had. Ok. I will just write it in short since I have other things to do after this. Hehehe.

24/12/2007
Yay! Christmas Eve! It was a wonderful and joyful joyful Christmas celebration in my church. I met so many people (it's like I never met them before) and I feel so glad to saw them. Ah. I do no know. It's like so glad to meet people when Christmas, there were a lot of joy and (of course) greetings..! And the sermon was about thanks giving. Yeah, I realized that from every "thank you" that we said. it really gave blessing to us. Yeah, it is true. =). After that, we took some picture at Hyatt hotel's Christmas Tree. And, again, we were act like never took picture before! Hahaha.

After that, did not realized that it was almost 11.pm at night. I've got movie to watch with Sansan, Tirza, Joice and Mike. But Joice and Mike were went first to the cinema before us. Hmm.. Think they are smart enough, knew that there will be always a people jam along Orchard Road. Guess what! I, Sansan and Tirza were like survivors, trying to went through the people jam and trying to avoid all attack (of artificial snow spray) from people. Argg.. Hate them and I (we) were feel very insecure. And I feel a bit more worried to the girls than to myself.. But in the end, I am the one who did not attacked and Sansan said it was the first time she was attacked. Ah, I just thought why I (or maybe we) never rely on God on the situation like that. Moreover, it is Christmas! Huhuhu. I feel guilty. Sorry, Lord. From now on, I want to rely on You more and more. =).

On the cinema, yes, we were late. We ended took a bus to reach Plaza Singapura from Lucky Plaza. And we decided pass through the MRT to reach the plaza, since we felt more secure to walking indoor. But, we could not find the way and in the end, we passed through the MRT gate and crossed to the other side. Hahaha.

Ok. This is a Christmas Miracle I said: the movie was stop 5 min after it started, so we did not really missed the story. AND... It make me know how boring is the movie. Yeah, It was a movie by Will Smith (seldom to me to know celebrities' name, like i never care) titled "I am Legend" (I don't feel like to review the film here, ok.) But, I told Tirza before the movie: Luckily he (Will Smith) is not alone, because if people do not like to see him, at least the dog can be quite entertaining. Hehehe. BUT, no wonder, the dog was died at the middle of the movie (then why they put the dog walking together with the actor like if they are the survivor until the end?) Hmmh.. So pity and i feel sad just when the dog died and think what is in the writer's mind when the actor committed suicide (Elvis is never tried to commit to suicided himself but he is being a legend until now.)

Ok. above everything, I received a coupon of refunded ticked due to all technical problem they had and there are still some problem with the 'movie provider' even I received the refund coupon already. Arrr... (The Pirate language in Facebook) no need to mention it here lar...

When everything finished, it was 2 am. Even the MRT was extended until 1.30 am. Yeah, it was yet not enough for me. And I decided to stay at Sansan's house all of sudden then 3 (with Tirza who already planed to stay at Sansan's house on Christmas Eve) of us went back by cab. Of course, I slept at her living room, on a sofa. Not bad. Hehehe.

25/12/2007
Christmas! Christmas! Hmm~ I do not know why, the only thing that give me the biggest feeling of Christmas is Christmas songs! (Moreover if they are in jazz arrangement. Hehehe) This day, we spent all the day at Marina Square and we had dinner at Central, Clark Quay (oh, my first time to come here!) I were with Tirza, Sansan, Joice, Mike and Albert. Ahh.. It was a very wonderful time when Christmas. Like we were carrying all the joy of Christmas are with us! We were laughing all the day at shops and places. Hahaha. Actually, this is my prayer from several weeks before Christmas and I really thankful to God. He is so good to me and I'm sure that He is so good to you too!

Btw, thanks to Tirza. She asked me to play House of The Dead 4 at the arcade. This would be my first time to play action platform game at arcade and I said ok, since I finished the House of The Dead 1 and 2 on my PC. But like what she said, it's really different thing when you really aiming the gun instead of aiming the mouse pointer. Hehehe. It was so nerving me and me me took it too serious. I think I am addicted with that game! Next time I am sure will come back again to finish all the zombies. But, do not forget to set up the budget for playing first. Please take note: The zombie will take c50 from you each time he bite you (and they will never bite you when you do not have money). What a materialistic zombie! Hahaha. Oh ya, talking about zombie, Mike is never stop to talking about zombie since the time we finished to watch "I am legend". Imagine, he was still saying 'zombie' on chat last night... Hahaha.

After all, I want to say thanks to Sansan and Joice too. They had forced me to join them for this.. Hehehe. Thank you. And my biggest thanks is to God for everything He has done in my life.

Ah, I really wished if Louisa could went along with us.
It is my happiest to spent Christmas with you guys.

Ok, I think this post has became very long already.. Hahaha.
Glory to The Lord!

.^^.

Poem for a Song Lyiric

My Acoustic
- by Louisa

Strumming my guitar,
Singing songs out loud,
On one simple evening.

It has been so long since the last time I felt this pleasure.
And now I am enjoying it again.


My Acoustic (after Louisa)
- by Steven

the guitar is strumming
on your mind, when
the song are faded in
to your heart, who
speaks the joy of God

praise is cheer!
worship is calming as well
as your word is never stop
to glory The Lord

.

Ini Puisi Louisa

This is a poem by Louisa which I translated it into Bahasa Indonesia.
- English version click here




Selamat Tinggal


ia bergegas di sepanjang jalan sunyi,
kenyataan dapat mencekamnya kapan saja
dengan berbisik pelan di telinga
tentang kenangannya pada kekasih

kolam kesedihan pun mati sudah
dua mesin minuman berdampingan
menjadi saksi dalam sunyi
dan langit runtuh pada kata terucap

taman bermain telah terdiam
menatap gadis dan rahasia dirinya
airmata menyusuri bening pipi
begitu deras walau telihat tenang

sentuhan itu masih kuat tersisa
bagai dua jiwa mesra
tanpa melawan maupun menyerah
lengan menyatu, lidah pun berpaut

sangat pahit, pertemuan mematikan
sentuhan telah mengucurkan darah

perpisahan dilambaikan,
dan dia sadar bahwa akhir telah tiba
aku harus tangguh, katanya

kilau malam telah padam
dan senyum periang telah lenyap

apa yang dibutuhkannya
hanya menjadi cukup kuat untuk katakan
selamat tinggal...

-





It's so sadd... Huaaa....

Facebook Fluff

Helloo.. How are you? Have you try Facebook? Hehehehe... I think, fluff friend is the most fun and healthiest feature in it. lol. I just update my fluffy pet window and it looks so interesting. I like it. ^^. This is my dog and the mini fluff friends. =D

* Figo is Louisa's frog ^^
* McLovin is Joice's monkey ^^


Merry Christmas! =)

Funny Conversation

Long time never chat with Sheena, my foundation classmate and we were having a funny conversation which make me laughed non stop for about 1min. LOL...

It started when she said want to change her cow (Facebook fluffy pet) wth other pet and it ended with she took a dog as her pet for now. After that she thought that my dog (Facebook fluffy pet) in my Facebook is called underdog and I said to her that it is "Nworb"...



.^^.

Facebook: Put Your Face on It! (do not your time =D)

Huahuahua. Facebook! Facebook! What a terrible thing. It is really make me addicted for at least an hour in every visit! Can you imagine? Oh, young people. Do not touch this. Hahaha. =b

Anyway, after 3 days dwelling in Facebook, I have found some fun-stuff that I found so...


1. I found this game so interesting beside the Snow Line. This is Monkey Kick Off and I am so glad with my hi-score. Hahaha.




2. Comparison quiz gave me 2 attractive question.

Errmm, sorry, can't answer this question.
Both of them can be so severe as can be ^^



Better laugh? You know who (: Tirza) Mwahahahaha...
It's so authentic ^^

La La La Love Song

Hello.. Long time never write. Actually I always wanted to write stuffs here, but it ended up with nothing because of my laziness. Hehehe. Ok. I am agree with what an poet says: the best way to start writing is write. Then let me start this post. =)

Do not know why, recently my maid asks me to look for any romantic film. She wants to watch. And it remind me to the last film that we watch, maybe at the middle of this year. It was a romantic, yeah, old movie from Japan titled Love Generation. We love this movie! (Ok, I can say if I love it too). Do you know why? Maybe the story is so romantic, but other things are... My maid says that the actor: Takuya Kimura is look like her boyfriend and I say that the actres: Takako Matsu is look like the girl i liked.

(Your are allowed to laugh for a while after looked at the photos. LoL. Ok, let's continue.)

Last night I remembered that there is another film stared by them. It is titled Long Vacation. I watched this half done in Indonesia. It was showed on Indosiar (television channel) when I was in junior hi school and I was quite like it even I didn't really understand what love is. But, in other case, Takuya Kimura is starring as a piano player in that film and the songs is very nice. Hehehe. I love it.

Now, I do not know where I can get this film. I can't download it anymore from Bittorrent since Toni (my cell group friend) said it is an illegal download. Hahaha. Ah, I want to watchh..!

However, I prefer Japanese Drama than Korean Drama. Do not know why. Yeah, I am agree that Korean Drama is more romantic, touching and funny as well (since I watch Korean Drama recently) but I still feel that Japanese drama have some hard-to-describe-tastes. Hehehe.

Here is one of the song from Long Vacation Drama. Enjoy.

La La La Love Song
(This is the new version sang by Boa)
Original lyric and music by Kubota Toshinobu

And you can see the English translation lyric from Mognet

Romantic... ^^

lalalalalalala...