Bored: Looking For Friends (or Things?)
Hello hello Bandung. (Dun think thirsty ok, I just need somebody.) Huuh. Going to the end of holiday is make me getting bored. It is like all the stuff for me to do is finished or they reached the boredom point already. Since I am push myself to not playing game this holiday. -Like last holiday, yeah. I feel fun with Maple Story. Everyday from morning to night just spent all the time to gain level and I didn't feel any bad thing (maybe because it gave me an virtual achievement?) But in the end I have realized if playing game is bad (I mean, a long long online game, not like some games in Facebook. Oh, that one just a bit bad lar.)- So, like what I have listed the plan on previous post, I ended up didn't so some things like sewing, because I have no money to buy the fabrics and stuffs. Then, If you ask why I do not paint or draw (when I did write much more than I imagined) it because like I loose my passion on it; because I were planning to much to develop my style until it ended up nothing.
And I need friends to talk to, to play to, to laugh together, but many of them are not available. You know, this is holiday: almost everyone went back to their country (this make me think that it's better to study in your own country and feel really like home with all the compromising of the bad things). And some who left here are busy (that's why they do not go back!). And I feel alone. I was talking about my church-mates. School-mates? I found that they are friendly (talking about fashion students). I like them. But I can follow where they go when they hang out. In ironic way, they just go smoke and club. 2 things that I really dun like. Maybe I should change course with all the artist friends and everyday we just go painting, art exhibition or even go to jazz free concert? Ok, however I feel they are nice people to talk to. Just can't go together with their group, the talking topic (no need to mention) will go very far than I can deal with.
Sometime, I think why I never come Singapore earlier so I can have some normal friends, like sec-friends (I call them normal friend, hahaha, like what I have on my high school. I envy Tirza who have some). Normal friends? I think I have some on my foundation year. Ah, forgot about them because of the business and we never contact each other for a one time. But I tell you, there was a canceled farewell party to my "lovely teacher" (hehehehe, dunno la. He is the best teacher on foundation I think even some people think if he is a bias person) because friend said: nobody want to participate. Sigh... And my final reason is, I have no money. So, it's better for me to stay at home. I'm glad that holiday will end soon.
Why I do not paint or draw? I really want to do it. I like to make portraiture, and I usually draw a person who close to me (feel more convenient) like some portraiture I've done. But, for now I dunno who I should draw, hard to pick one (really sentimental like what Tirza describe me. Hahaha.) Then, see later how. Since holiday will end soon, I have to read the grammar book that I planed to read, and read some fashion stuff again. Next semester is for 'fashion textile", 'fashion communication' ( I have to write a lot here. Hey! Write this blog with english is really helping me,) and there still some design workshop like sewing and pattern-making (ah, I love them!) and I hope I still have the management lecture. This is the lecture which I always fell asleep but recently I have understood what it is about (I say myself want to go Fashion Management? Hahaha.) I like this lecture, and the lecturer is so great even the teaching method is quite bad...
Sigh.. So tired.. I think I just go back the satisfaction of jazz music, like I just amaze on every arrangement they have like no other thinks to pay attention on. Hahaha. Btw, I just sleep about 2hrs last night because of the decorating for New Year Service in the church. I thank God because everything is done well. And I just awoke from my short sleep and feel lonely again. Huh. I had a nightmare. Louisa. Louisa. You was in my dream! And I do not know why all the paparazzi chase after unclothes-me (just with a towel wrapped for my bottom.) Huahahaha. I tried to broke they cam until I woke up with a very fast heart-beat. Oh God... What a nightmare...
Ok, I think I stop here. When I was thinking of game, suddenly I remembered about HOD4. Hehehe. Do not know when I can play it again. Tirza, where else I can play that?
And I need friends to talk to, to play to, to laugh together, but many of them are not available. You know, this is holiday: almost everyone went back to their country (this make me think that it's better to study in your own country and feel really like home with all the compromising of the bad things). And some who left here are busy (that's why they do not go back!). And I feel alone. I was talking about my church-mates. School-mates? I found that they are friendly (talking about fashion students). I like them. But I can follow where they go when they hang out. In ironic way, they just go smoke and club. 2 things that I really dun like. Maybe I should change course with all the artist friends and everyday we just go painting, art exhibition or even go to jazz free concert? Ok, however I feel they are nice people to talk to. Just can't go together with their group, the talking topic (no need to mention) will go very far than I can deal with.
Sometime, I think why I never come Singapore earlier so I can have some normal friends, like sec-friends (I call them normal friend, hahaha, like what I have on my high school. I envy Tirza who have some). Normal friends? I think I have some on my foundation year. Ah, forgot about them because of the business and we never contact each other for a one time. But I tell you, there was a canceled farewell party to my "lovely teacher" (hehehehe, dunno la. He is the best teacher on foundation I think even some people think if he is a bias person) because friend said: nobody want to participate. Sigh... And my final reason is, I have no money. So, it's better for me to stay at home. I'm glad that holiday will end soon.
Why I do not paint or draw? I really want to do it. I like to make portraiture, and I usually draw a person who close to me (feel more convenient) like some portraiture I've done. But, for now I dunno who I should draw, hard to pick one (really sentimental like what Tirza describe me. Hahaha.) Then, see later how. Since holiday will end soon, I have to read the grammar book that I planed to read, and read some fashion stuff again. Next semester is for 'fashion textile", 'fashion communication' ( I have to write a lot here. Hey! Write this blog with english is really helping me,) and there still some design workshop like sewing and pattern-making (ah, I love them!) and I hope I still have the management lecture. This is the lecture which I always fell asleep but recently I have understood what it is about (I say myself want to go Fashion Management? Hahaha.) I like this lecture, and the lecturer is so great even the teaching method is quite bad...
Sigh.. So tired.. I think I just go back the satisfaction of jazz music, like I just amaze on every arrangement they have like no other thinks to pay attention on. Hahaha. Btw, I just sleep about 2hrs last night because of the decorating for New Year Service in the church. I thank God because everything is done well. And I just awoke from my short sleep and feel lonely again. Huh. I had a nightmare. Louisa. Louisa. You was in my dream! And I do not know why all the paparazzi chase after unclothes-me (just with a towel wrapped for my bottom.) Huahahaha. I tried to broke they cam until I woke up with a very fast heart-beat. Oh God... What a nightmare...
Ok, I think I stop here. When I was thinking of game, suddenly I remembered about HOD4. Hehehe. Do not know when I can play it again. Tirza, where else I can play that?
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