Girls, when you reject your friend's love, make sure you don't give him shit and make him think that you are not even worth as a friend at all ...

Yahoo! It looks like I almost do not have any reader for this blog. Ah~ who care? I am what I wrote. Hahaha. Life have been so happy recently since Christmas. It is like I got back my one-and-an-half-year-ago-life which was a happy-life-without-her. I have some new friends also. Friends are always one of the most wonderful things, isn't it?

Mmm. What should I say first. Okay, I will start about how I feel about this year. Hehe. I feel so much energized this year by God. Because of my knowledge of God, it makes me realized that He always causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them (Romans 8: 28). And I am trying to manage my time between works, God and friends (of course) after a very stressful year in 2008. I feel that I spent too little time with my friends.

This year will be a busy year! (Don't every year a busy year too?) I will get my diploma on this May and I am considering to go to another school. I still do not know yet about this plan. I can only pray. Hehe. I will try hard to improve my poetry also. I have been so motivated by all my writter friends and I want to be even better and better to reach national level. I have to practive my drawing skill too. It is one of my greatest passion. But the economic goes worse.. So sad, I wish I can get a new laptop that can support my design.. Sigh..

There is one thing I want to tell you.. Today was my first day for the new semester but the class was canceled and postponed until this Wednesday. I have felt so fed up about these kind of things. The Fashion Management Course is never organized the stuffs at all. That why also I have considered to change school (or course, maybe) on next term. But it is really not my plan. It is God plan. So, let's pray and rejoice for worries do not add a single moment to this life!

Btw, I am kind of broke. No money left. My salary is not out yet and my mom have ot send me mony too. But, I will not worry for my god is a perfect shepherd who will profide all my needs. I hope I can meet Monica and Alben tonight to talk about some design for the next church event. Hehe.

Let praises, worships and honours for Him alone!

This is one of BECK soundtrack, a wonderful anime about music. This song titled Moon on the water and I transated it into bahasa. What a lovely song regardless of what the lyric says but it doesn't mean the word has a low aesthetic.

Enjoy..


Danau Purnama

purnama berayun
pelan di malam terang

dalam langkahku
mencari sebuah pertemuan

purnama melambai
pelan di permukaan danau

engkau di sana
tersenyum dalam dekapku,
dalam waktu yang lampau

betapa bodoh
tak kutahu hari esok
apa lagi yang akan tiba
ah...

aku bodoh
tak mampu melepaskanmu
walau kupahami sudah
berakhir

cinta purba
terbang bagai burung
dengan sayap tertahan

engkau di sana
tersenyum dalam dekapku,
dalam waktu yang lampau


English version
Video

This is the most ridiculous, touching, romantic awesome music and video I ever see!!



Salute.

Things to learn this holiday:

• Refine my pen drawing skill
• Refine my coloured pencil skill
• Try to use water colour or water colour pencil
• Refine my writing skill and style
• Conceptually understand God's words

Things to do this holiday:

• Create some characters
• Create a new header for my blogs
• Create a lot of drawing and illustration
• Write poems
• Study the bible
• Design t-shirt for cell group
• Finish my internship report
• Read some books about management
• Make some music compositions and arrangements

Ehm.. Ehm.. I warn you, this will not be a long post since I feel so lazy to update this and rather enjoy this moment by listening some instrument.

I just went to some of my friends' blog that you can find it at the link bar right there. I felt bored when I was reading the last post title at Vanessa's blog. As usual as ever, it is again about friendship. But since I was and am quite free, so I just went through the post and surprisingly it was a wonderful post about friendship I ever read. Let me review what she wrote:

Vanessa said that best friend is not a person who will always there for you or a person who can make you be yourself. Best friend is a person who make you dying, she said. Hey, this is interesting, I thought, as I continued to read it. She explain that best friend is someone who will make you stress because your burden become more because you are not only think about yourself but about that person too. For instance, she continued, maybe you will dying because you lost so much money just for the things which that person desired for long time or when you get so stress when that person were in troubles.

What an amazing thought. Of course we ever heard that a best friend is a friend that not only with us on happy time but also when sadness come. But by looking it from the opposite side, we can easily get the prove of what best friend is. And by receiving your friend's sacrifice, you will receive them as your friend too and act as a friend too for that person

I hope we have more awareness of the meaning of friendship by reading this and I will close this post with a verse from John 15:13. There is no greater love than to lay down one’s life for one’s friends.


p.s. this post is mainly dedicated to Louisa, my friend, who was hard to receive a friendship.

Here I start to fill this empty posting sheet. It is 3.37am in the morning. I just woke up from my long sleep after 2 days sleepless night. Time has become to tough recently. Here is the fact. I started my internship in CK Paragon from 13 October 2008. Fortunately, I work 8 hours per day, 5 days (2 days off) a week with payment of 6 days working a week. It is because they already standardize the salary for internship and obviously lower than the part timer salary. So, as my calculation, it is like I am working for free for 1,5 week every month.

Yay. 2 days off in a week! What is good about this? These off day definitely are on Thursday and Friday which I should come back to school for core module classes. I though these are my only chance in the week to get rest from work but who knows, I did not even sleep on this Thursday and Friday because of the projects.

Saturday is coming. I got midshift. It is 11.45 - 19.00 and I will join my FA-mate right away for dinner. Miss them so much after long time never meet. I feel like these 2 months internship will be the busiest period of my life within these 20 years. And last week was my thoughest week within these 20 years. My mom came to Singapore when my school is so frutrating as usual. I still need to took her to some places and took her back late at night after I did my project (luckily she came here with my aunties). In this case, please don't mention about family relation, because I have been demanded so much by my family. So, do not try to give me any more burden as I already warned her I would not have time to take her around.

Phew.. I lost my external HD too last week. Sure, it was a great mental attack for me. All my songs and pictures are there! So I am like having a new world now without my music and I will be so stress if I think of how long I had spent to collect that 50GB songs. But, fortunately, I got closer with a girl in church that has a same music taste with me (but it is not the jazz part). It is really like one of a kind. So I copied all songs that she have. I am so glad, thank her so much. Now I have a sort of nice new songs. However, it is still like entering a new world. I have been listening to DBSK and Jay Chow and I love them so much. I feel like this moment is really not me but I am charmed to going toward that direction. I feel something changed in myself and it has been true that "your are what you consume".

Do not know why, suddenly I feel that this post content is so unorganized and might be hard to understand. I feel I need some more sleep. My head has been freezing in these last two days. Ok, this is the right time to end this. See you..